mattg778

i can understand how to change oneself to gratify other people and make friends (even that i do not understand fully, however) but i dont understand how someone can be happy while doing that. its stupid

figure id update twice in a week, just to keep the fans happy. well i got a's in all my classes again this quarter, except for math. unfortunately for the first time in my highschool career im gonna get a b+ on a semester grade. this is not because i did bad in the class, in fact i got a's for the first and second quarter. this is because mount is simply gay, and our math department decides to take 10 points off an exam for not putting in equal signs. if i could say this to mr levesque (which i will someday) i would say that my father is a cfo and makes a bagillion dollars more than u in math. when he doesnt put an equal sign, guess what, he still makes a bagillion dollars. i got a 84 and i only got one question legitatmately wrong on the whole exam. if thats not wrong then u tell me what is. ne way im happy with the rest of my grades, pretty much all set. i might even pull an a out of spanish (if mrs berretto is so kind). ne way on to something a little bit happier. i purchased FF 7 and FF tactics last night for about 20 bucks, which is cheap for such classics. ive actually already played FF 7 before, but i never owned the game. i figure another run through cant hurt me (its my fav game of pretty much all time). which brings me to something ive wanted to write about for a while now, and that is why games have become shitty. sure, the FPS has really come into its prime, and the sports game business is almost as competitive as the actual sports they present. however there has been a huge downfall in really unique, quality games lately. i remember back in the day playing games like goldeneye. goldeneye was a game that one could play for months on end and never get bored. i remember spending an entire summer playing goldeneye over my friends house practically every day. nowadays a person will get a game, play for a month, and then get a new game and never play the old game again. i think thats the reason im starting to buy older games. in recent memory ive purchased FF 4, Chrono Trigger, Growlanser Generations (a compelation of two older growlanser games), as well as FF 7 and tactics. i just think these games give one something more than presentation and flash. these games give one a special feeling, its an urge to keep playing. everyone can agree that if uve fought one monster in an rpg, uve basically fought them all. so how come people like a game like chrono trigger, which was released for the SNES, better than a game like FF 10, that was released for the PS2. FF 10 obviously has better graphics, better presentation, a deeper fighting system, more fleshed out characters. so why do people prefer chrono trigger. well i for one dont have an answer to that, just brought it up. its like how i enjoyed katamari damacy more than most games that cost millions of dollars to make. its a spirit the game has, not how good its graphics are. nippon ichi is like that too, little pixelated characters with lots of heart (yay laharl). ya so thats all for now, cause im gonna go play chrono trigger. cya

ya so,havent updated in about 3 weeks, and cassie has been bugging me again so i thought id stop by and drop a line (or two). last night was the winterball, which was pretty fun. i got the best dressed award, which i was told was not only a surprise for me but to about 3/4ths of the people there. i got ten bucks to dunkin donuts for it, so now i can get a bunch of bagels and hot chocolates. next week is what we all refer to as, "intermission" which is the middle week between exams and when we start taking tests and doing projects again. while ive only been back to school for 2 weeks, it feels like i need another christmas vaca. games wise,i got RE4, which is the best gamecube game to date (i think). its prob between that and zelda for most people (while i didnt like the windwaker, i can really see why many think its a great game). and now we enter the time period in which games stop getting released (the good ones ne way) and we all must wait until october before the next game rush. i guess the game im most looking forward to now would have to be the next dark zelda game. i loved ocarina of time, and i think the wind waker really wasnt a worthy sequel to that game (i never got to play majora's mask, which i heard was pretty awesome as well). but i got about 7 games i havent played yet that i should, so i think i can last between now and october. also this summer we're getting a pool, (and youre all invited). a heated pool and a hot tub, pretty derned good. and right now i think im gonna go call someone so i can get some food (its about 1 and i just woke up). so ill like update a little later...maybe. cya

lookit! another update! ya im bored and listening to possible songs to put on my ipod so i gotta sit at my compy for a while while i listen. right now im listening to metallica's song "ride the lighting." I dont really care for the lyrics but the guitar riffs are great. ive never actually listening to ne thing by metallica before, so i thought id give it a shot. theyre pretty darn good, and itll gimme more songs to put on my ipod. i have this erge to fill that 1000 songs gap on my ipod, and until i do ill be plagued with an empty feeling. right now im at about 118 (if i put the songs im listening to right now in). thats still around 8 hours of music, which is the battery length of an ipod, so its kinda weird to have like 66.666 hours of songs (thats the max for a mini like mine). but ne way im rambling about something that doesnt really matter and making everyone thats reading (cassie and maybe jess) really bored. lol i write all this crap and think people are gonna read it all, but when i go to someones livejournal and they start rambling about crap like this i just skip that section. now im listening to master of puppets. that sounds cool, its like this old puppetmaster who like has killer puppets at his disposal. not the stupid little puppets like in that puppetmaster movie, but big demon puppets with swords! then the guy with the little puppets will be like "omg wtf!" and the other cooler puppetmaster will be like "HA!!1 nub 1m 1337er than thou! ill shove pwnwaffles with noobsauce down ur throat!" ya! that fight wouldnt last very long. but this song has kinda weird lyrics too. good guitar, bad lyrics, kinda cheesy. this one might not make the holy ipod list. actually ya, its not going on the ipod! (ride the lighting made it tho.) whoa hold on, the song just changed............its kinda calmer now.........still good guitar.........ahh this parts good so it might have to make it now. i have one song in mind but i dont kno what its called, ne of the words, or who sings it! i cant hum it either, i just know i like it. song just got bad again. if this guy didnt talk the song would be good. ahhh such good guitar and bad lyrics! he just yells MASTER a bunch of times. thats not lyrics, thats called ruining a good song. god this song is really long. ok its not making it. now im listening to a song called fade to black. thats a weird title. good guitar (as usual) lets see if the lyrics are presentable. the guitar is really good in this one. the beginning is pretty much awesome, but he hasnt spoken yet. lol hes got like a weird voice in this one, but its a little bit better. ya i think this ones gonna make it unless he pulls a complete song about suicide at this point. thats what happens in some good songs, the song will be like going and then all the sudden out of no where the guy starts singing like, "i cut my head off and like killed myself i hate myself i hate every!!!" and ur like wtf this is a good song only now if i put it on my ipod people will think i wanna kill myself! and it makes the song worse too. this ones kinda about all that stuff, but it hides it well so its acceptable (most people who would judge u by ur songs are too dumb to understand half the shit people say in songs ne way, so a metaphor in a song is a good indication that they wont understand it). people always complain about rap being all violent and like encouraging gang behavior and shit, but i think white people music is like far more fucked up. have u heard a white person sing lately? its like, "i hate fucking girls i hate myself i took so many drugs and shit omg i shot myself in the arm with a bullet made of pot!" and i dont hear all those people complaining about rap complaining about those songs! (i dont really like rap either tho). alright 3 songs have made the list, listening to a 4th now. if this one makes it itll be 118. this ones about how the sandman is a bad guy. this song must have been concieved with the help of a lot of drugs. lol "dreams of dragons fire." yes this one was def from the help of drugs. i dk if i like this one, a little too heavy rock for my taste. well that one didnt make it, now checking number 5 (or six if ur counting). this ones called One and its good..so far. this ones about suicide too, and very obviously too. dammit metallica why do u have to fuck up all ur songs and make them about dieing! dling beethovens 9th now. heheh, tj told me to dl something for every occasion. so if ne one likes classical i got beethovens 9th now. well One didnt make the list either, i wanna make 120 songs! i think i can take a break at 200, cause 200 songs is about 15 hours worth of music or so. i have about 8 hours right now (a little bit less). well im gonna go now, so ill update at one point in the future (maybe). oh ya and merry christmas cya

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I found that on my old livejournal, and it appears as my first entry. in actuality it isnt my first entry, its actually my last entry on my first day (i didnt kno how to use blogger my first day). doesnt that seem profound somehow, even tho its not really meant to be. lol i got my own ideas but i wont bog u down with all my super heavy thoughts (all three of em). ne way, u kno what i havent written about it this massive book of a blog i have, is how much i HATE reality tv. its something i just cant stand, and i actually just finished giving a five minute lecture to my family about how reality tv is just, so bad for society. what it really shows, rather than reality, is another, even deeper version of fakeness. no longer are we seeing fake people's fake lives, we are seeing real people's fake lives. that just multiplies the problem. im not too crazy about kids these days (i sound like an old man huh, well im talking about kids my age) cause theyre all just sooo damn fake. i read the book catcher in the rye, and while i despised the main character ill have to agree with him that so many people are just fake. btw i didnt like the main character cause he was just too pissed off (yes even i have my limits). so ne way i dont kno where i was going with that, but yeah i really just hate reality tv. dont try and be like the people on the real world or the OC (yeah the OC isnt reality, but i still dont like it). BE A REAL PERSON! thats all for now my little cadets. dismissed!

back by popular request, my unexplainably long livejoural entries! dont say i didnt warn u. so then, i guess if ur reading this ur probably either jess or cassie, cause i think there the only two people who kno about my journal (besides myself of course). so ne way i havent written in about what, like 5 months about. thats a pretty long time considering i used to make around 5-10 entries per day in this thing (counting the ones on blogger too). ive noticed the format of my writing has changed, but nothing too drastic. I always personally liked the ability to do html instead of having a website already made for me like how livejournal and blogger do it. but im too lazy to relearn html for something like this. ne way back from my pointless tangent, so the last 5 months have seen their ups and downs. had a gf, and it was pretty good till the end (im not gonna retell that story). whatever, sometimes in life u find people are jerks, even tho u thought u knew em. its happened before and itll probly happen again. but todays been pretty good, cause i got thursday off. i have mad tests tomarrow tho (freaking teachers decide to like triple the workload for the second quarter all the sudden) but its nothing i cant handle. got my report card today and i had a 4.5 gpa as usual. not too shabby if i say so myself. i cant help but kinda feel bad for the kid with the 4.9 gpa tho, cause holy shit u must really work hard for something that matters so little in life. if i had a 3.0 gpa and got into umass, and if someone had a 4.9 gpa and got into brown, all i would have to do is work my ass off for one sememster and get straight a+'s and then transfer to brown (im not making that shit up, ive had friends whove done it). so like, id rather work less and have more friends than lock myself in a room 5 hours after school everyday just trying to get a little bit better a grasp on hybrid orbitals. but enough with that (cause it makes me sound introverted), ill tell ya about what the immediate future's holding. well theres this girl i kinda like, and we've already gone on a date but i think the whole relationship thing is still fuzzy (mainly cause she like doesnt talk to me online). im gonna invite her on another date for this weekend and see what happens (who knows, maybe this time around my girl luck will change). thatd be nice, but yah thats about it for now. i kno its not a usual entry, where i take something that pissed me off and go off about it for 500 words about how wrong it is and how the person who did it will be damned to hell, so u guys should be happy this is a relatively positive entry. and for all my three readers (actually i only have two huh) sayonara, or however u spell it

wow, i really havent updated this thing in a while. nothing really to say. ugh, i used to be able to write so much in here without ne problem, but now i dont have ne thing to say at all. the seniors leave tomarrow, which is kind of weird because that means my cousin kevin is graduating. they give the seniors way too much shit at our school at the expense of everyone else. for example, i have to get up at like 8 oclock saturday morning to work the parking lot at their graduation, and its fucking mandatory. but that wasnt my only option, i could have also worked their ice cream social (or something) and there was one other thing but i forgot it but it was about the seniors. its kinda stupid that they make the lower classmen work like dogs for the seniors, and give up possible sleeping hours. i got unreal tournament the other day and its pretty good. i like it better than counterstrike, but i keep forgeting that i hate all first person shooters. its not too bad, as far as fps go, but i would still rather have a good old strategy rpg. ummm, what else to talk about? how about the fact that this is probably the most broken english i have ever used in a journal entry as long as ive been alive. im literally wincing at my computer with every sentence i type. oh we had a dance on friday, which was alot of fun. it was like the first mount dance where i actually danced with alot of girls the majority of the time. and track is about done, and once again we didnt win ne thing in the class or divisions. rogers beat us by like 100 points, and i really dont get how they are in our class. rogers is like the second biggest school in the freakin state, so how the hell are they in class D. doesnt make ne sence to me either, but oh well. well this is a pretty good length for an entry, so im gonna go and eat m and m's now cause me madre bought me some. i have an odd craving for tuna at the moment as well, and i dont know why. cya

i have about 5 minutes of free time, stalling for righting my english essay. i should really sign on later and tell jimmy to do it, so if ne ones reading this and its still...today and they know jimmy can u tell him to do his english hw, and his history hw. ne way i thought i would stop by and make an update while i have some free time, and tell u about stuff. i recently got onimusha 3 for the ps2, which was supposed to be the final one. its not, of course, cuz at the end theres another guy whos like I SHALL BE THE DEMON LORD! yeah so theres gonna be another one, which is good. i wish theyd do a new game+ feature in onimusha, cuz itd be really fun to kill all the earlier demons with your crazy swords u get. ok other than that la pucelle tactics comes out on wednesday, which is absolutely crazy cuz its just like disgaea. slight differences are its not as super deep, which is kinda a good thing cuz u can literally play disgaea for over 100 hours and have only done like 1 fourth of all the stuff u can do. in la pucelle aparently it only takes about 120 hours to get everything done, while for normal, mortal game players that might be a bit intimidating, but i enjoy a game that i can really sink my teeth into. i plan to continue to work on disgaea once jimmy gives it back to me. the third nippon ichi game (nippon ichi is the developer, and they are the best developers in gaming right now) is called phantom brave. its another disgaeaish game. see, disgaea focused on character tactics, where u have to have strong characters and strong equipment. la pucelle focuses on formation and character variation, because of how the battle system is different from disgaea's. then phantom brave focuses on terrain tactics, because u have to bind your characters to certain objects. i actually perfer a game where formation takes the lead to strength, cause its always satifying to have a 3 level 5 characters up againsnt 3 level 10 characters and to use crazy tactics that are just unbeatable. disgaea kinda did that, but not really, so im really really really looking forward to la pucelle. actually, theres only 7 hours left till it officially comes out to the states, thats how obsessed i am. i just rememberd something so i have to go. cya

sorry ive been so busy lately. i havent really had a chance to update this thing in a while, and i havent been online in over 2 weeks. ne way i just got back from my track meet and i got 8th place overall, which im pretty happy about. we had the semi yesterday and it was alot of fun. i shouldve gone last year, cause it really was a bunch of fun. i felt like i was kinda quiet tho, most of the time, but really i think thats cause i was a little nervous. id write more about everything that happened but i fear who might be reading this. i think my date had fun too, which is good. i just had a thought, why do u have to say something is good after you like say something. like i said my date had fun, which is good, but couldnt u figure out that that was a good thing. its just one of those little habits people pick up in writing. i talked to a couple kids on my track team and apparently theyre taking the same sat class i am. that makes me feel a little bit better that ill actually kno some of the kids going there. it suprised me that i only got an 84% on my psats, cause usually im about 95%. i think i was sick or something that day, but most kids did in the 60 to 40 range. well it was up against juniors too, so its not really bad. gotta take another shower now and really get all the gel out of my hair. cya

quicky update cause i still am doing makeup hw. ok so then over the past few days i got my licence, the road test is a joke. however i basically can only drive myself right now, so its kinda useless. it pisses me off a little but eh, f that. other than that ive been working my ass off. cassie didnt reply to either the comment i left in this blog or the one i left in hers, cause she thinks im mad at her or something. well if your reading this i dont know why youd think that, ive just been unbelievably busy. i got a meet tomarrow and then two tests the next day, 50 math problems i havent started and an essay for history. i didnt do too well on my last history test, as i forgot to name the treaty of guadelupe hidalgo or name ne of the battles in the mexican war. mr seaver said i could come see him if i wanted my grade, but i just forgot about it so i still gotta see him tomarrow. also tomarrow i have a spanish test, and a religion quiz and test. chem hw too, but i actually did that. oh shit i gotta read the english story so with that i will bid u all adieu, or however u spell it. do it, do it cya